I have never been a very patient person. I’m not a fan of surprises because I just do not have the patience to wait long enough for the surprise to happen.
Birthdays drive me crazy and Christmas is even worse. When I was a kid, I was very good at snooping for my Christmas presents and was quite successful; I even learned how to unwrap and rewrap gifts (sorry Mom.)
Our first Christmas together as a married couple, Jon and I opened our presents from each other 4 days early because I just could not stand to wait any longer.
Patience is something that God is continually trying to teach me.
God is teaching me patience right now.
I told you in my late night ramblings the other night that I am looking for discernment. I am looking for an answer. I am looking for clear direction for that next leg of my journey.
I am getting anxious about it. I feel like I still do not have a clear answer. Before church this morning, I prayed that God would have something in the sermon that would give me some clues or even a definitive answer. I went to church expecting Him to give me some direction.
Guess what the sermon ended up being about?
What are our expectations of Jesus?
I went to church expecting to hear this glorious message that would give me an answer from Him and what did I get but a sermon about how I should not have any expectations from Him except for the fact that He loves me.
He died for me.
He loves me.
Bottom line of expectations.
Because if I go around life having expectations of God, I’m going to end up putting Him in this little box of what I expect Him to be and not allowing Him the chance to show me just how big He really can be.
So I just need to sit back, be quiet, listen and wait. God will show me the path of my next journey in His timing.
He knows what the future holds for me.
I do not.
I need to expect that with God, ANYTHING is possible.
Whether that means another year on MOPS leadership or if that means saying “No” to everything, He knows. No matter which path He has in store for me, He will be there by my side, holding me up, guiding me and loving me.
I am a work in progress.
For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.