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Finding Peace

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I finally feel like I am getting into a regular schedule. It has taken a lot more time then I had hoped for. With the kids starting at a new school, bible study starting, I returned to MOPS Leadership despite what I thought this year was going to look like, and I have started a new business almost full-time. PHEW! Sometimes I feel like I hardly have time to breathe (or sleep or eat!)

My youngest toddler is going to “preschool” at my sister’s house twice a week and I finally feel like I’m catching up with things and getting into a regular weekly schedule. Which means that I can FINALLY get back to sitting down and writing! I have really missed this part of my life. I never realized how much I loved writing until I wasn’t doing it.
Thank you to my faithful readers that have hung on, waiting for my return. =)
You ARE appreciated!

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As I said above, I have returned to my MOPS leadership position. I had assumed that God had other plans for me this year and now I know it was meant to see if I would follow Him obediently wherever He led me. It was not easy stepping down from MOPS. It has been a huge part of my time as a mother and it has helped me through some difficult times. I have made some amazing friends and been hugely blessed through the MOPS ministry. I was not quite ready to say goodbye and it was tough, but I felt that was where God was leading me.

Apparently, He was not ready for me to leave MOPS yet either and has bigger plans then I thought. Through circumstances, I was asked to rejoin MOPS with less responsibilities so that I could continue to grow my new business and to focus on the other things I need to do for my family. After MUCH prayer, I realized that there was a reason that God wanted me back there and I accepted. After I found out the topic that leadership will be focusing on at our meetings, I knew that this was the reason. While I will still have responsibilities and I will be pouring out to those around me, God is sticking with the plan that this year is the year meant for me to focus on me. I found peace with my decision to return.

In the midst of all this, I have started a brand new business. It is helping me find health and financial freedom. Two things that I was hoping to work on as I focused on me.

I am slightly disappointed in where my path is going this year because I had hoped that it would start moving towards writing and women’s ministry a little bit more. But then I realized that while this season of my life is busy and it is difficult, it is helping me to grow and mature in my relationship and my faith in God. As a result, I will be better prepared when He is ready for me to step down the journey of women’s ministry.
Because of that realization, I have found peace with the chaos of my life right now.

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Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.
~2 Thessalonians 3:16~

Discernment

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I find it very interesting how you can think you have life all figured out and then something happens to change your opinion.
At this point, I am not exactly sure if it is God working or if it is Satan.

As I said in a previous post, I feel like this next year is supposed to be about me working on me. I have said a big “NO” to a lot of my previous responsibilities and I have been planning on getting our apartment cleaned and organized and keeping it that way, working through a couple of bible studies, and get healthy physically.

One of the responsibilities that I stepped down from was being on MOPS leadership. I have been doing MOPS for 8 years and been on leadership for 5 of those years. It has been a huge part of my life. It was a difficult decision to make, but I felt that was where God was leading me.

The last couple of weeks MOPS things have been gearing up. All my closest friends are on MOPS leadership. I’ve been missing it. Badly. But is that just the same old me who always feels left out? Or is it really something that I am truly missing from my life.

Yesterday I received a call. There person that was stepping up into my publicity position had to step down. They wanted to offer me my position back just in case I was having second thoughts before they opened it up to anyone else. Also with the position, I could cut back on the amount of work that I did last year, which means it would be less time required on my part. Would I be open to thinking about it and praying about it?

Ugh!

How do I discern if this is God or if this is Satan?

Is God allowing me a compromise because I followed His leading and stepped down to begin with even though it was difficult?

Or is Satan trying to tempt me back into my old strongholds because God is drawing me nearer?

Is God not through with me yet in this role? Did someone else’s situation change the direction of the path He wants me on?

Or is Satan trying to draw me back to all of the clutter and chaos that has filled my life for years?

How do you decide? How do you discern the difference between Gods leading and Satan’s temptations?

What do you do when you have a decision to make and you cannot figure out who is doing the leading?