I find it very interesting how you can think you have life all figured out and then something happens to change your opinion.
At this point, I am not exactly sure if it is God working or if it is Satan.
As I said in a previous post, I feel like this next year is supposed to be about me working on me. I have said a big “NO” to a lot of my previous responsibilities and I have been planning on getting our apartment cleaned and organized and keeping it that way, working through a couple of bible studies, and get healthy physically.
One of the responsibilities that I stepped down from was being on MOPS leadership. I have been doing MOPS for 8 years and been on leadership for 5 of those years. It has been a huge part of my life. It was a difficult decision to make, but I felt that was where God was leading me.
The last couple of weeks MOPS things have been gearing up. All my closest friends are on MOPS leadership. I’ve been missing it. Badly. But is that just the same old me who always feels left out? Or is it really something that I am truly missing from my life.
Yesterday I received a call. There person that was stepping up into my publicity position had to step down. They wanted to offer me my position back just in case I was having second thoughts before they opened it up to anyone else. Also with the position, I could cut back on the amount of work that I did last year, which means it would be less time required on my part. Would I be open to thinking about it and praying about it?
Ugh!
How do I discern if this is God or if this is Satan?
Is God allowing me a compromise because I followed His leading and stepped down to begin with even though it was difficult?
Or is Satan trying to tempt me back into my old strongholds because God is drawing me nearer?
Is God not through with me yet in this role? Did someone else’s situation change the direction of the path He wants me on?
Or is Satan trying to draw me back to all of the clutter and chaos that has filled my life for years?
How do you decide? How do you discern the difference between Gods leading and Satan’s temptations?
What do you do when you have a decision to make and you cannot figure out who is doing the leading?
